Depression & hopelessness


 mePraying tonight for people who are feeling depressed, hopeless and even suicidal.Some of you want to sleep and not wake up, you are that tired.

I want to tell you that God has not forgotten you.
I want to tell you that this is not a lost cause.
I want you to know that nothing is to hard for your God.
Negative thoughts are not from the Lord.
You can overcome with Jesus.
For many years I was tormented by the devil.
I was a drug user & I didn’t think there was any hope for me.
When I became born again( a Christian) I started taking the Bible Literally. I started applying it to my life.
I learned how to open my mouth and use my authority in Christ to tell those spirits to go!
Without him we can’t do anything.
With God all things are possible.

If you are a Christian struggling with this level of depression, you need to tell a Christian friend.
Have them pray for you.
If you are in immediate need most definitely seek medical help, right away.

If you have a chemical imbalance you need to know. And please don’t let anyone make you feel guilty for it.
Jesus knows you love him.
He also will give you much grace through your process.
It’s ok to get counseling, you may need it.
If you need medicine then you need it!
No shame!
God loves you, he uses doctors too.
Please don’t be alone if you feel like ending your life. Please speak up until your heard.

If you are a person dealing with depression but not feeling suicidal.
Take a look at your surroundings.
Are you wearing yourself out?
Are you letting your kids run you?
Are you in an abusive relationship?
Do you know what an abusive relationship is?
Because verbal abuse IS abuse and it can tear a person down.
Are your children healthy in your environment ?
I had to make hard, heartbreaking decisions to help my WHOLE family.
I needed to put my wants aside for awhile to ensure the well being of my family.
Sickness of alcohol, drug, mental or physical abuse won’t just affect you. It will affect your kids too.
There are boundaries we all need to have a healthy lifestyle . To ensure your well being.
Because if you are in a home of disfunction it will affect everyone.
Change starts now for your well being. Don’t wait!
No excuses you need peace of mind.

We need others around us to pray for us and help us in life.
I do too!
Love you


Single mama’s Jesus is so proud of you!


I write about things I’ve been through,
For the single mamas.
Oh single mamas you are amazing people.
People try and understand you but they can’t, unless they have walked a day in your shoes. You need energy to work double time, just to make things go well for your family.
It’s so hard for you without a help mate to take some of the load from you, just for a little bit.
And that disrespectful child, you can’t say ” here take them for a while”
You are the only one there!
You struggle to keep food in your fridge, manage your household, take kids to school, make kids do their homework & sometimes it’s stressful cause they won’t listen!
Sports , ugh that’s another task.
And if you have many children, you have much more responsibility.
God bless you single mamas, I wish there was more done for YOU!That people could hear your voice when you want to talk, cause the burden is great.
God bless the single mamas, raising sons to be Godly men, raising daughters to be Godly women without a father in the home.
God bless you single mamas, the widows with children …God himself promises to hear your voice. He understands the burdens, the troubles that comes against you. Great grace for you single Mamas, who take the time to teach your children to love the lord. Who insure you always know where your kids are. Those moms who try their best to get the whole family to church on Sunday’s. And some of you don’t even have a full tank of gas, but you go anyways it’s that important to you.
There is a great reward for you mama, when you see all of your children serving the lord. It will have been worth the cost to do the right thing, even when no one cheers you on!
The time you’ve invested teaching your children about Jesus, how to respect, to have good morals , to be disciplined… All of these things you have done, that have taken a lot of your time are not for nothing.
Your children will bare much fruit becoming great men & women of God because you did the right thing. You chose God over selfishness, you chose your family.
Don’t give up… Keep going mama Jesus is so proud of you!

Yielding, Forgiving & Facing things

At my husbands funeral I got to talk to the woman who was dating him while we were still married. A lot of people didn’t know I was pregnant when he died. I was in such a fragile condition, I was told I may lose my baby.
I had so many cruel things happen to me and my kids during that time and I just wanted some peace.
So when this woman showed up I prayed.
” Lord I need to confront her, but I want to say the right things”
So I walked up to her at the reception.
I said “are you Ilene?” (Fake name, just trying to be Christian 😉)
She said , “yes”
I said ” Your the woman who was with my husband while we were still Married!”
She looked shocked ”
“No he was divorced ,” I said,” Nooo, you see the bible says you must have a certificate of divorce & we were going through it but we were still married”
” But you know what, I am a Christian, I forgive you and pray God will bless you”
She said, ” ahhhh thank you ”
I smiled and said ” you are welcome!”
🙌🏽 there’s a time to be silent and then there is a time to speak.

Forgiveness, I really forgave her in my heart. She wasn’t the only one I had to forgive, there were others. A few of these people I ended up praying with years later.

God doesn’t make me pray for every single person who has done me wrong. But I go with the flow of God. I’ll Be open to him & he will lead me.

He won’t lead me the wrong way. But I love the out of the box God experiences.

Ive learned something that I think is powerful. You overcome because Jesus is with you. His sacrifice makes this all possible. His spirit lives inside of you, he teaches you all truth. He gives you the power to live this Christian life. He turns it all to work for your good. Because God is good.

Where your emotions were raw & painful. He makes you strong and an overcomer. Because you lean on him for strength. When you live for God, that is a witness to others. When they see you live it day after day they take notice & They to will put their trust in Christ.

Here’s another quick little story . My husband and I used to live by this lady who would flirt with him often and I did not care for her . I felt disrespected.

Years later when I was separated from him, I moved across town and guess who moved in By me.. her again !

I asked God “why !!!”

One day I was praying and the Lord corrected me because I didn’t like her. The Lord showed me the abuse she had endured as a child . God who knows ALL hearts was giving me direction to help her. He wasn’t going to send me to fail. He was sending me because he is merciful and wants everyone to be saved. He knew I would listen. There was purpose to her living so close to me. I was to finish the job. God was not done with her yet. Wow, God loved her. And I needed to see her through his eyes.

The next time I saw her outside I am embraced her and I told her what the Lord has shown me . I went from Lisa the person who was hurt, to Lisa a minister of God . And that my friends felt really good!

It was really deep & and the Lord was healing her.

I looked at her from that day forward with different eyes and she never again disrespected me . That my friend was a God moment .

Are you Yielded to him? Are you ready to say” what ever you say goes God, I’m yours?”

He is so wIlling to give you even more of those divine appointments. They may even be right in front of you!

But would you know it if you saw it?

What if they were not what you expected?

Are you willing to let go of your rights to be right?

That my friend is between you and God!

But I know this he can & wants to use you. He wants to use us all. These out of the box experiences from God I have found to be healing for me, fruitful and some have even been adventurous. Not a boring life at all!

Me with God: You want me to go there!!! 😳 Ooooookkkay you know what your doing! And then I am so blessed by that experience. Because I yielded to God.image

God has so much more for you, ask him to help you in this. He will he is faithful. Only YIELD to his ways.

Love you hope this helps someone.




My thoughts on Adultery

Adultery, I’m just saying. If they are married, taken, engaged, spoken for don’t lower your standards. I don’t care how fine, nice , sweet , generous or spiritual they seem.
Oh my goodness !
Ok I have a story
I was going through a divorce.
My husband at that time broke my heart.
But in my heart I made a commitment to God to continue to be faithful even if he wasn’t.
Long story read my book it’s got all the details.
I’m in a store and I run into a man I’ve known since we were teens.
Well he asks me out.
I just so happen to know he is a married man!
I was mad, Hot😡
I hated the things that were done to me and I would never do that to another person.
I said to him
” you need to repent!”
” you are a married man!”
” you also need to apologize to your wife!”
He said, ” but Lisa your my friend and we are Separated” I said ” that’s right I am your friend And that’s why I’m telling you, go back to your wife and apologize, you are a married man!”
I told him what the bible says about these things. He listened to what I had to say and we parted ways.
His brother was there shaking his head.
He knew I was right.
So at the onset, right as Satan “tries” to tempt you
Do like Jesus did.
He said the words of God right to the Devils face and Devil fled away.
“Loyalty” a beautiful quality one should look for in a mate.

“Dear Potential Husband” This is for my single Christian friends

My thoughts on dating 


God has walked me through a ton. He has been my husband. That’s what the bible says in Isaiah 54:5 For your Creator will be your husband; the LORD of Heaven’s Armies is his name! He is your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel, the God of all the earth.

I have known him as my provider, my protection, my comforter , he has loved me, been a father to my kids… God has provided for all of my needs in so many ways. I would not trade this time or my experiences for anything in this world.  I see a change in my outlook on things. My faith has been tried, stretched and strengthened in him. I have leaned on the Lord for my every direction in this life raising kids, finances, miracles & safety.

I have noticed a change in the desire of my heart. I have desired to be married again. The bible says in Genesis 2:18 Then the LORD God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper who is just right for him.”

No rush. God’s got this under control.

Awhile back, I prayed about a certain man who wanted to date me. I had a dream that night that I will forever be thankful for. The conclusion after that vivid dream, he was not God’s best for me. And again I had another friend, a dear man. In prayer I heard the Lord give me direction. He also comforted me letting me know he had someone for me. I was to wait for God’s best for me.

So when you pray, believe, believe you will receive an answer or a confirmation. 

Mr. Worldly Man

I don’t care how nice they are, what they drive or what their income is. If they don’t have a relationship with the Lord, they are not for you. Not if your serious about your walk with God. 

Don’t let the loneliness get the best of you. Loneliness makes people do funny things. Satan can trick people who are vulnerable, if your not careful. Be on your guard in those times. Wait on God, he will guide you. I have many friends who have prayed, waited on God & are now happily married. It can happen!

The bible says in 2 Corinthians 6:14 Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness?

Me and my kids have been through wayyyy to much to let someone in our lives who isn’t right for me or for my kids. After all, he will be a part of all of our lives. And God wants what’s best for the other person too.

So regarding the worldly man or woman  you should run, go the other way, don’t even tempt yourself. If you are serious about your relationship with Christ you will not return to the vomit (hey its in the bible) meaning your old life style before you came to Christ.

1 Corinthians 15:33 Do not be deceived: “Bad company ruins good morals.”

Don’t think to yourself “MY situation is different” “I’ve got this,I can change him. ”

Oh my friend that’s the classic thing a co-dependent person would say. It’s not a healthy relationship for you, it’s not a healthy one for your kids.

Be careful, Solomon in the bible thought the same things & God had warned him not to have wives who didn’t know God. God told him that these women would turn his heart away from God. But Solomon loved them anyways.

His wives did just that. They turned his heart away from God. I feel sad every time I read this, He had walked so closely with God too.


Getting together with someone who doesn’t Love & follow the Lord is a recipe for a disaster.


I cant be Jesus for you.

If he didn’t have a walk with God before you met him, he’s not God’s best for you.

And you can’t make that happen.

 If you, deep inside think you can change him, then your headed for heartache.

So cross him off your list, he’s not God’s best for you. His life is God’s business. God knows what he’s doing. Let him go before you get so entangled in the web Satan has set up for you.


So don’t even start. As I said before Satan can use him to pull you away from God. Satan has been using that trick for a long time.

Jesus, the lover of your soul

Let God heal you before you jump in the dating game again. You need this time. Don’t run away from it. It’s good for you to cry it out. You may have locked up anger, disappointment’s, regrets & more all locked up and your running from dealing with it.

Before you start dating again consider sitting with the best counselor I know, Jesus! He healed my heart completely, so the pain of the past is now a memory. No more pain. 

God may want you to sit with a professional counselor, pastor and others who have walked that road before.

If you’ll go through this recovery time the right way, I believe in the future you can have a relationship again & a healthy one.

Go through the emotions, get it out! And then let God put healthy truths back in your heart. Let him Love on you and restore you.

Dear Potential Husband,

For all the years I have been faithful and loyal to you. I have been praying for you. I am restored and ready for the new.

I prayed for a man who will play ball with my son. Who will be a friend to me and my kids. A man that’s gentle but strong. A man who is mature in the Lord.

Thank you for waiting for me


Thank you for your faithful promises. Your word has guided me through it all! You have comforted me, been a husband to me, provided for me and Jesus you have loved me.