Category Archives: Faith

Depression & hopelessness


 mePraying tonight for people who are feeling depressed, hopeless and even suicidal.Some of you want to sleep and not wake up, you are that tired.

I want to tell you that God has not forgotten you.
I want to tell you that this is not a lost cause.
I want you to know that nothing is to hard for your God.
Negative thoughts are not from the Lord.
You can overcome with Jesus.
For many years I was tormented by the devil.
I was a drug user & I didn’t think there was any hope for me.
When I became born again( a Christian) I started taking the Bible Literally. I started applying it to my life.
I learned how to open my mouth and use my authority in Christ to tell those spirits to go!
Without him we can’t do anything.
With God all things are possible.

If you are a Christian struggling with this level of depression, you need to tell a Christian friend.
Have them pray for you.
If you are in immediate need most definitely seek medical help, right away.

If you have a chemical imbalance you need to know. And please don’t let anyone make you feel guilty for it.
Jesus knows you love him.
He also will give you much grace through your process.
It’s ok to get counseling, you may need it.
If you need medicine then you need it!
No shame!
God loves you, he uses doctors too.
Please don’t be alone if you feel like ending your life. Please speak up until your heard.

If you are a person dealing with depression but not feeling suicidal.
Take a look at your surroundings.
Are you wearing yourself out?
Are you letting your kids run you?
Are you in an abusive relationship?
Do you know what an abusive relationship is?
Because verbal abuse IS abuse and it can tear a person down.
Are your children healthy in your environment ?
I had to make hard, heartbreaking decisions to help my WHOLE family.
I needed to put my wants aside for awhile to ensure the well being of my family.
Sickness of alcohol, drug, mental or physical abuse won’t just affect you. It will affect your kids too.
There are boundaries we all need to have a healthy lifestyle . To ensure your well being.
Because if you are in a home of disfunction it will affect everyone.
Change starts now for your well being. Don’t wait!
No excuses you need peace of mind.

We need others around us to pray for us and help us in life.
I do too!
Love you


Yielding, Forgiving & Facing things

At my husbands funeral I got to talk to the woman who was dating him while we were still married. A lot of people didn’t know I was pregnant when he died. I was in such a fragile condition, I was told I may lose my baby.
I had so many cruel things happen to me and my kids during that time and I just wanted some peace.
So when this woman showed up I prayed.
” Lord I need to confront her, but I want to say the right things”
So I walked up to her at the reception.
I said “are you Ilene?” (Fake name, just trying to be Christian 😉)
She said , “yes”
I said ” Your the woman who was with my husband while we were still Married!”
She looked shocked ”
“No he was divorced ,” I said,” Nooo, you see the bible says you must have a certificate of divorce & we were going through it but we were still married”
” But you know what, I am a Christian, I forgive you and pray God will bless you”
She said, ” ahhhh thank you ”
I smiled and said ” you are welcome!”
🙌🏽 there’s a time to be silent and then there is a time to speak.

Forgiveness, I really forgave her in my heart. She wasn’t the only one I had to forgive, there were others. A few of these people I ended up praying with years later.

God doesn’t make me pray for every single person who has done me wrong. But I go with the flow of God. I’ll Be open to him & he will lead me.

He won’t lead me the wrong way. But I love the out of the box God experiences.

Ive learned something that I think is powerful. You overcome because Jesus is with you. His sacrifice makes this all possible. His spirit lives inside of you, he teaches you all truth. He gives you the power to live this Christian life. He turns it all to work for your good. Because God is good.

Where your emotions were raw & painful. He makes you strong and an overcomer. Because you lean on him for strength. When you live for God, that is a witness to others. When they see you live it day after day they take notice & They to will put their trust in Christ.

Here’s another quick little story . My husband and I used to live by this lady who would flirt with him often and I did not care for her . I felt disrespected.

Years later when I was separated from him, I moved across town and guess who moved in By me.. her again !

I asked God “why !!!”

One day I was praying and the Lord corrected me because I didn’t like her. The Lord showed me the abuse she had endured as a child . God who knows ALL hearts was giving me direction to help her. He wasn’t going to send me to fail. He was sending me because he is merciful and wants everyone to be saved. He knew I would listen. There was purpose to her living so close to me. I was to finish the job. God was not done with her yet. Wow, God loved her. And I needed to see her through his eyes.

The next time I saw her outside I am embraced her and I told her what the Lord has shown me . I went from Lisa the person who was hurt, to Lisa a minister of God . And that my friends felt really good!

It was really deep & and the Lord was healing her.

I looked at her from that day forward with different eyes and she never again disrespected me . That my friend was a God moment .

Are you Yielded to him? Are you ready to say” what ever you say goes God, I’m yours?”

He is so wIlling to give you even more of those divine appointments. They may even be right in front of you!

But would you know it if you saw it?

What if they were not what you expected?

Are you willing to let go of your rights to be right?

That my friend is between you and God!

But I know this he can & wants to use you. He wants to use us all. These out of the box experiences from God I have found to be healing for me, fruitful and some have even been adventurous. Not a boring life at all!

Me with God: You want me to go there!!! 😳 Ooooookkkay you know what your doing! And then I am so blessed by that experience. Because I yielded to God.image

God has so much more for you, ask him to help you in this. He will he is faithful. Only YIELD to his ways.

Love you hope this helps someone.




People fail us ,but God should be our focus

God is the most important thing in my life. Without him I wouldn’t be here alive today. I always think about that. So its a good thing he is first in my life. This makes me a better mother, daughter,friend a better person in general. If I try and make any person I care for the center of my life,they will fail me. People fail,everyone makes mistakes including myself .We ALL fail sometimes. So we should not put all of our high expectations on others. If we do that ,well we have put them in the place that belongs to God. You have seen people who are so amazing ,they love God and are so kind.But the minute they make a mistake people are quick to say “Christians are phonies” You see we expect to much out of people .WE should be giving it our all, when it comes to our Relationship with the Lord.Investing real time with God so we can know him more intimately. When he is your primary focus your mind becomes more clear, you view people differently and you become more forgiving. Balance is what we need. Love people but don’t make them your God.Your emotional needs are important …let the Lord help you in this.

Matthew 10:32-39
32-33 “Stand up for me against world opinion and I’ll stand up for you before my Father in heaven. If you turn tail and run, do you think I’ll cover for you?

34-37 “Don’t think I’ve come to make life cozy. I’ve come to cut—make a sharp knife-cut between son and father, daughter and mother, bride and mother-in-law—cut through these cozy domestic arrangements and free you for God. Well-meaning family members can be your worst enemies. If you prefer father or mother over me, you don’t deserve me. If you prefer son or daughter over me, you don’t deserve me.

38-39 “If you don’t go all the way with me, through thick and thin, you don’t deserve me. If your first concern is to look after yourself, you’ll never find yourself. But if you forget about yourself and look to me, you’ll find both yourself and me.

Faith in God Through Life’s Changes

When change is happening in your life , when things don’t remain the same ,you start to question everything. Just know in Christ you are safe, because he sees through the murky waters your in. He sees the way your to go . He knows exactly where your at & the plans HE has for you. You are NOT forgotten by God . God has a protective nature towards us , I love this. This has always been so important to me , to feel protected. God is ALL knowing, so walk in Faith! He has your back whatever you do & wherever you go. HE will never leave you! Faith believes even when it doesn’t see the results yet, just believe .

Proverbs 3:5-6 (NIV)
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;in all your ways submit to him,and he will make your paths straight.

My Story as a Troubled Teen & The Love That Saved Me



I’ll start by talking about my own experience as a youth. Growing up drugs were in my environment where I lived. I watched my dad’s life spiral out of control with a Heroin addiction for many years. I would cry for my daddy who I loved every time he was locked up in prison again. I had high hopes clinging on to every promise he made to me. Promises like “This is the last time”, and “I’m Going to change” etc. Every time he would get out of prison everything was great! All was well until the problems of life were in his face. Things like our grades, my tight jeans bothered him, our rooms needed to be cleaned. He would find an excuse to be mad & so that was “why” he had to go. He would go back to his old ways . We wouldn’t see him again for long periods of time. My Mom would be depressed all over again & sleep so much due to the whirlwind of confusion in our lives.

We were all so dysfunctional. I think I tried pot at around age 11. Someone was babysitting me at age 12, their friend who was there gave me a drug in a glass pipe to smoke. You would think I would have had common sense not to do this. But somehow I thought that drugs were normal. Later in my teens I was into Meth and Cocaine.

I wanted to be thinner, so I asked someone who was skinnier then me how she did it. How did she stay so thin? She told me she would eat and then make herself throw up. She told me also take laxatives. We also shared drugs mostly meth. I was a real mess.

I started to become bulimic. I would eat and purge. Every time I took a shower, my Mom would listen by the door. Because I would purge in the shower & she knew it. The enamel off my front tooth started coming off probably from the acid in my stomach due to purging. She asked me to stop doing this to myself. But I was so self-destructive. I also went through a time of practically starving myself.

I had a lot of suicidal thoughts and heard voices telling me to kill myself .I was so confused and no one could help me.

During this time in my life I remember people saying terrible things about me to my parents. Even though most of it was true. Their gossiping about me hurt so badly and it broke my parent’s heart to hear these things. Never once did these people try to reach out to me or share with me their Christian faith. I didn’t trust them & I felt worthless. But God is the one who put a stop to all of this confusion. He snatched me from the road of destruction. He redirected my life & made me new. He gave me such a peace.

I now minister to at risk youth, I am such a blessed woman. I have seen what Love can do. I am a life that was changed because he loved me. As flawed and imperfect as I was, he still valued my life & loved me. I will never forget all he did for me.

That’s how the Lord looks at youth, valuable, priceless and loved. Telling someone I love you is good, but go further. Buy a youth a meal, this means a lot to them. I find sharing a meal with people shows you care. Take time to hear what they have to say. Be a good listener and pray for their lives often. Kids know a phony, they are street smart and can tell when someone is real. Speak life into their situation that seems hopeless to them. They need mentoring, encouragement to get an education & they need the Lord in their lives. There is nothing God cannot do. My life is changed because someone loved me. That someone was Jesus. He saved me from taking my own life and gave me a new one. I am not the same. Love gives people motivation to go on. Love gives people hope that everything will be OK. People need to know there is someone who will never reject them, so we point them to God!

By the way I have more good news, my dad has been clean for many years now, Praise God!

John 3:16 “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.

Romans 5:8 but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Proverbs 8:17 I love those who love me, and those who seek me diligently find me.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Luke 7:47 “I tell you, her sins–and they are many–have been forgiven, so she has shown me much love. But a person who is forgiven little shows only little love.”